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Sunday, December 04, 2005

A Parable in Pictures
Thomas's first freeform exploration of rhyme

A new road stretches before me, and in the distance
I see a figure approaching.
She is truly the form of beauty; a picture of perfection

 Even as I stand for the moment fixated on her,
my eyes slip to the pool at my feet and
I see in the water a reflection,
a picture.
Would that it were merely a trick
of some cruel mirror in some crueler funhouse.
But that hunched and twisted form staring back at me is me.
Truly
and
completely.

 And for a moment I nearly turn to return,

 because clearly she cannot see me clearly,
else already she would have turned (her back)
and fled (back)
along
this
path.

 But hope is a funny thing in the hearts of men
(in the heart of this man),
and so I press
onward
and chance to ask her hand.

She proffers and (confirming that she is blind)
tells me that I am ignorant (but kind)
because, you see (don’t you see?), she has a past
and the less I know the longer this moment will last…

 …at least until I’ve gotten to know her better;
the closer we are
the more we can weather
together.

The laughter in my head dies upon my lips
as my eyes search hers for traces of the quips
I’m sure she must be making.
And yet I see that in fact she believes me to be
The one who’s form is whole; rather it is she
who is, in her eyes, twisted to the point of breaking.

Then our sad and beautiful, bitter and sweet story
unfolds before me
like another retelling of the whole of human history.
Alone we are broken, together we are strong
And here is the mystery whose comprehension is beyond
A mind such as mine no matter how long
I contemplate it.

I am broken; I am scarred.
I am hurt and I am marred.
But I am also loved and being daily conformed
to the image of him in whom I have been reborn.

As she draws closer to me and I to her,
the evidence of my mistakes and failures
will become ever more clear.
And I know that soon I’ll be able to see
the things she hates that she used to be.
But those will make her more, not less, dear.

Because perfect I am most certainly not,
and if she were, I wouldn’t have a shot
at being a man with whom she could walk.
But both of us are flawed and need a hand
To make it through this broken land
So we can grow to be the one about whom we talk.

And the funniest thing happened
(as I started toward her again).
I looked into that pool
and noticed that
I seem to be standing a bit straighter than before
and breathing a bit easier than before.

The air is sweet this day.


Friday, September 30, 2005

I'll Prey for you
Didymus


Sweet, sweet angel
Address me with your lips
Don't worry, I'm just staring at your hips
With mercy come to grips
Sweet, sweet angel

The Lord says it's okay
We don't have to worry
Nor do we have to hurry
The guilt will come in flurries
But, the Lord says it's okay

Don't pray for me,
I'll prey for myself
Don't pay for me,
I've got all the wealth
paid in a pound of flesh.


Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Epideictic
(by Lazarus)

Words like honey
Drip from your tongue,
Twist around my neck
And I am hung,
Oh, by your charm...

So much for thinking, "What's the harm?"

Honey don't drink easy.
I should have known
That you smile and deceive,
You love and you leave.
Now I'm on my own.

I'm down and out -- my cover's blown...

Everyone knows...

Like the sun will I rise
Only to fall again?
Or will I close my eyes,
Throw caution to the skies,
And stand against the wind?

I will.....


Sunday, September 25, 2005

Of Ravens and Widows
(draft one by Thomas)

is my bleeding cough all i have left in this place
this wasteland
this desolation?

the dust of this place (wasteland) [desolation] filling my nostrils
and coating my tongue
and i haven't enough moisture left in me to cleanse my mouth

can you hear the dust in my words?
can you bear to look upon my wilderness?
can you see the death i exhale?

oh wretched man that i am.
who will save me from this body of my death?

a great thirst burns within me.
a great thirst steals my life
a great thirst brings death into this desolation

in this place even Jacob's well has run dry
in this wilderness even that miraculous spring is no more
in this desolation i am lost without something greater

oh wretched man that i am.
who will save me from this body of my death?

before jacob's well, I am.
before the wilderness, I am.
in the midst of this desolation, I am.

i am the water of life.
drink of me
i am the bread of life
eat of me
i am
behold me in this place

and be saved from this body of your death

send your ravens
show me the widow
save me from this body of my death.



Wednesday, September 14, 2005

More originals to come, but in keeping with little ditties not by us, here's an old U2 song with a word tweaked here and there.  Your thoughts are most welcome.

RUNNING TO STAND STILL

And so she woke up
From where she was lying still.
Said, "We got to do something about where we're going."

Step on a steam train,
Step out of the driving rain,
Maybe run from the darkness in the night...

Sweet the sin,
But bitter the taste in my mouth.
I see seven towers,
But I only see one way out.
You got to cry without weeping,
Talk without speaking,
Scream without raising your voice.  You know
I took the poison from the poison stream,
Then I flew out of here...

She runs through the streets
With her eyes painted red
Under black palette of cloud in the rain.

She is raging...
She is raging, and the storm blows up in her eyes.
She will suffer the needle chill.
She is running to stand still.



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